jIn's CULTURE

Saturday, March 03, 2007

It's 5.40 in the morning and Les is still not back from his hall meeting.. Been waiting since 10 p.m. in his room and I'm having a make up lesson for my marketing module at 10 a.m. later... but I cant sleep anyway.. This week is BAD... esp today.. or rather Yesterday...

Once again on Tuesday when I wanted to print my lecture notes for my Science Gem i.e. Color and Vision, I realized that there is going to be a midterm test on Friday (Over already).. and all topics for the past 12 lectures will be covered (and out of 12, I attended only 5 and out of the 5, I left halfway for 3) It is supposed to be a level 1000 module but DAMN that module! It's soooo Damn difficult.. The concepts are sooo CHIM and involves quite a no. of complicated calculations... The description sounded so easy and I STUPIDLY FELL into the trap... It's as good as taking advanced PHYSICS which I dropped during my JC days.. I failed for my CA1 for this module and happily missed the CA2 cos the test date was announced during one of the lectures which I again happily skipped...(The lecturer is an Ang Moh that speaks so softly and with a super thick accent that only he can understands himself) and to think that I spent/WASTED 3 entire days studying for my midterm just now... AS IN REALLY STUDY!!! like reading up the notes and course pack and SURFING the net for all the supplementary readings and extra information... BUT THE ONLINE TEST IS SOOO FREAKING HARD! I'm pissed! for every question (30 in all), there are 5 checkboxes.. and the correct ans cld be any one of those or 2 out of the 5 or 3 or 4 or all correct... U tell me, how many thousand permutations are there?!!! and everything within 25 minutes... I din even manage to finish them and the stupid system just FLASH my PATHETIC SCORE right into my face.. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! (20/70)... It's sooo UNFAIR!!! cos for other ppl who are taking this module with their frens, they can do in groups beside one another (There's no one to monitor anyway).. and I had no one to discuss with.... DAMN DAMN! now I'm so scared that I cant scrap a C for this module cos I wont be able to grad then!!! I S/Ued this module so min must get C.. which I really doubted I can scrap thru!!! KT advised me to register for SPECIAL TERM during the holidays but I NEED TO WORK to pay for my airfare!!!

I'm so pissed.......... and I tink I juz screwed up my Forensic Term Paper as well which was also due just now... No Time to do.. spent all my time on the stupid midterm... and I din even study for my SAKAMOTTO maths exams on Thursday (2 days ago) whereby I need to get at least 70 marks before I'm qualified to teach at the learning centre.. and and AND I'm having my preparation seminars for my overseas internship later and on Sunday from 8.30 a.m. to 5.30 p.m... This means to say that I only have Monday to study for one of my midterm on TUES which I haben even started and not to forget my NEVER-ENDING project work and submissions due next week... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SORRY FOR THE LONG GRUMBLE!!! but I am PISSSSSEED with myself... My time management, My LUCK, My SCHEDULE.......... I need to catch a show and STOP BINGEING on sweets and biscuits whenever I'm stressed...I can easily finish off 1 TUB of love letters (Those GiGANTIC size from GIANT type) without realising it.. Nowadays I feel soooo Unhealthy and Lerthagic... DAMN

*JiN* slept soundly at 5:28 AM