Friday, February 24, 2006
hmm.. i've neglected this site for quite some time... Things are fine now:):):) it's just that nothing interesting to blog about for the past 2 weeks.. maybe except i attempted to bake again(banana walnut muffins, one of my FAV!) like on Monday? hahaa.. i wanted to bake like since dunno when and i bought the ingredients a long long time ago.. so when i open e container that keep the flour, Inside got WORMS!!!!! *YUCK* so i've to buy another packet..And for safety, I checked the expiry date of the walnuts(also bought a long time ago).. alright still can be used:):) BUT i regret being too kiam siap! cos the walnuts lose their crunchiness liao.. and it affects the final taste of the muffins=( hiz... gonna attempt again.. and Zhi is going to be my guinea pig as usual.. haha!
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Ohh.. and i attended the Mozart 250th Birthday Symphony last SAT too.. hahaha.. Being the not-so-musically inclined me... this is the FIRST time i step into Victoria Concert Hall again since Secondary School days?!!! hahaaa.. so when Les asked me wanna watch tog not, i agreed without considering.. and I've to go dig my cupboard for some glamer clothes to wear.. haha and i managed to find one set tt i wore to concert during my Sec Sch days.. PERFECTO!!! still looks brand-new and pretty:):) and for ur Information, I din sleep during the concert~ tho..the music was really soothing to the ear.... and each play lasted about 30 LONG min so i was a bit drifted in the middle.. i started looking ard and observed the ppl.. haha.. Obviously, i spotted a few nodding off=P (but i din!!!) Overall the performance was good.. haha.. i dunno how to assess a musical play.. so i can only think of "Good" to decribe.. but it's really not bad! hahaa.. another adjective:)
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i Met up with Zhiying on Monday for supper also at one of my fav place i.e. Kallang Macs:):) (Oooohhh.. and i intend to hold my 21st Birthday this year at Macs party room.. Hmmm.. i din have it when i was young.. so it's now or neva=p tho~ majority of those i've mentioned this idea to, threaten not to attend..hahaaa..) Anyway, i really enjoyed the talking session:):) she's a good gossiping partner cos both of us loves to *gossip*GOSSIP*gossip* but nowadays i find it hard to catch up with friends due to school.. i see the amount of projects and mid-term tests on my schedule.. i wanna FAINT!!! Just yesterday, I had 3 project meetings back-to-back all the way from 10 a.m. to 5.30p.m. and it was supposed to be my holiday.. Initially i wanted to send Clara off @ the airport.. but i was totally too exhausted.. so i dropped by her house on my way home instead:) guess it'll 1 long year before i see her face-to-face again........ and by then, we'll be working old aunties in the society liao... I DUN WANNA BE AN ADULT!
*JiN* slept soundly at 10:43 AM
Thursday, February 09, 2006
I've been contemplating whether should i post this online.. but I guess i really have had ENOUGH! How should I start? I really dun wish to sound too hysterical/depressing/crazy... but I've been really unhappy since New Year..
I'm really SICK and TIRED of people commenting on how I look.. ALRIGHT! i know i'm skinny.. In Fact DAMN SKINNY!! so dun have to repeat this into my face every SINGLE time u see me k?!.. New Year WAS supposed to be a joyous occasion.. I was really looking fwd house visiting BUT EVERY house i go to.. my relatives will exclaim:" Aiyo!! what happen to you?? why u become lidat.. all BONES! VERY not pretty u noe? U din eat is it? dun over-diet... and BLAH BLAH BLAH.." (i'm really not being Kua Zhang when i used the word "EXCLAIM") and one of the most hurting situation was when i went my mum's friend's house.. The situation was like this:
Aunt No. 1: What HAPPEN TO YOU???? are u sick or sth? u skinny until u look adnormal u noe??? (@ e top of her voice in a CROWDED house) AND tt's not the end of my tramua... She proceeded to ask everyone to come and feel my Arms and Waist and keep emphasizing how "barely there" they were!!! I felt like an EXHIBIT waiting for them to touch me (It was SO RIDICULOUS!).. all eyes were on me and those many many MANY anuties and uncles were commenting away.. I FELT SO DAMN INSULTED and ANGRY~ but it's NEW YEAR!!! and I must give my mum face right??? so I brushed it off..I just smiled and mentioned " Ya Lor.. Stress la stress la.."
TT's how i started my new year this year.. The very next day was 1st day of New Year.. and I dun wanna spoil my family's mood also.. so the whole day I put on a smile.. but I really dread going to other houses.. I din mention this to anyone during new year also cos I dun wanna dampen anyone's mood..
AND EVER SINCE NEW YEAR... my mum literally keep mentioning on how i look and what i Should eat and stuff lidat.. She's cooking soup almost everyday for me and make sure i drink in front of her.. My grandma called me during breakfast and lunch to check on what I've eaten and my mum will make sure i eat my dinner and supper.. I remembered once I was having lesson halfway and my phone kept vibrating.. I returned the MANY missed calls after lesson juz to realize tt it was juz my grandma checking on whether I've had my meal.. I was soo pissed off! but i din screamed at her la.. i just said " Ya la Ya la" den she replied" You dun bluff.. I noe u din eat..........." Wa!!!! i nearly banged down the phone~ and on days when i feel lerthagic.. I juz wanna go for a run and my mum will stop me" How can you go in this kind of condition?? what'll happen if u juz faint lidat? can u stop giving me worries?? Why cant u juz stay @ home and REST?" PLS LOR.. I was previously a TENNIS player lor.. and my record was 20 ROUNDS round the track for warm-up can? and my NAFA every year GOLD one lor!!! (I'm not boasting here.. but she juz makes me sound soo weak)
WHY is she(and some others) making me feel like a SICK person? I'm NOT!!! i dun have fainting spells and stuff lidat.. I'm alive and kicking! I'm not falling sick or stuff lidat...I'm having my proper meals too~ My mum's not the ONLY one.. I'm even starting to harbour thots of skipping school cos every friend i bump into will give similar comments.. I noe I'm sounding crazy @ this point of time.. BUT IMAGINE the same things being repeated to you every SINGLE DAY and MANY MANY times a day.. Juz today.. i was being commented on Again during lunch and again when i bumped into my hall friend earlier on.. I always juz laugh it off but inside me I'm really hurt.. I'm really very sick of juz pretending I'm fine with the comments... Some of Them even comment on my photos i.e. like how my arms and legs look in some photos and I usually become the Topic of Discussion during lunch and this always happens during lunch gatherings..UNTIL I've a phobia of eating with friends.. Even to the loved ones around me.. I've mentioned how I feel bout his issue but time and again.. they will forget and mention it..
FRIENDS: I noe you ppl care bout me.. Personally, if i see my friend experiencing a drastic change, I will also ask as a sign of concern.. but really... ONCE is enough.. and pls be sensitive twds how the other party will feel with your choice of words.. I noe I'm sounding crazy now.. BUT I'M NOT~ really.. All these attention juz add on to my frustrations.. U have to be in my shoes in order to understand how I feel.. It's not as if i wanted this.. It's really a kind of mental Torture.. tt's y I feel tt i shld blog bout it and let others to know how i actually feel..and I'm not targeting anyone when I'm typing these out.. sooo for those who feels targeted.. " Dun worry.. I'm not Mad with ya or anything.. still Friend -Friend ok?! I felt tt i need to let u guys be aware of how i personally feel" I admit tt My appetite was really quite jialat the previous sem cos I was pretty stressed out by one module but I'm back to normal now.. Just give me time and view me juz like the past? This will bring back my cheerful days again.. ( Well not tt I'm depressed or anything now.. But juz kinda upset over this issue)
Clara: I'm extremely grateful to ya last night! Thanks for the long long talk.. Hope I din scare you.. but my conversation with you really helps! tho' i nearly din go school this morning cos' of Swollen Eyes=P Thanks FOR BEING my pillar of support yest=D
Zhiying: Hmm.. tho~ u din do anything or maybe not even aware of this.. but nevertheless.. I wanna thank you.. cos You are the ONLY person who's really sensitive twds me.. You are the ONLY one who juz kept quiet or even defend me @ times during e New Year.. Guess.. u really understand me well..
Lester: Thanks for loving me for who I'm :)
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p.s. ..and while i was typing this blog halfway.. my grandma called again.. to check on what I've eaten for my dinner and she said she bought alot of biscuits for me for my supper and tea-break.. Pls!!! when will all these STOP??!
*JiN* slept soundly at 9:08 PM
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Our First Stop:
HuiYi's House:):):)
I was LATE cos i OVERSLEPT and when i reached my house bus-stop.. I realised i forgot to bring my WALLET!!!! Waaa.. i was soooo sian... in the end I have to cab down=( By the time i reach, the girls were already chatting away... and we spent a super long time chatting.... was supposed to leave her house by 12 p.m... In the end.. we only managed to leave her house after lunch i.e. 1.30p.m. and we din have time to visit as many houses as planned..
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Our Second Stop:
Clara's House:):):)
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Trying on Clara's Specs=p Do i have the "Teacher-Look"???
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It was supposed to be a "Sit-A-While-And Leave" session.. hahaaa.. in the end we watch TV, take photos and talk rubbish till NEARLY 4!!! hahaa.. and she was like packing all her clothes and giving them away to us cos her wardrobe is practically bursting with clothes!!! hehe.. i "Kop" one Mambo Berms from her with the price tag still intact!!! THANKS Clare!:):)
We left her house after choosing the clothes and while we were crossing the road.. we saw our BUS and cos we have to wait very very long for the next one.. we decide to rush for it... WAH Liewww... i dunno how many donkey years din work out liaooo.. i pant like mad and KAILIN BROKE HER HEELS!!!! HAhaaaaa... she damn poor thing.. cos when she alighted.. she has to walk across the road barefooted and we crossed bridges somemore... and the SUN was damn scorching today and the pavement was damn hot!!
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Our Third Stop:
Wen Han's House:):):)
By the time we reach her house, It was nearly 5 p.m. and we leave her house ard 5.30p.m to go my house cos it was really very late liao... In the end, we convinced her to drive to my house.. hahaaa.. it WAS DISASTROUS cos she's really a Direction-Cum-Road Disaster!! she dunno which lane to go, where to turn, which direction towards my house even tho' my house was only 3 stops away from her!!!! haha.. even a road idiot like me can guide her ard... hahaa... well.. maybe it's a mistake to put me in the front seat to direct her.. Hahaaa.. cos we took alot of turns before we finally find an opening to my house's carpark...
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We forgot to take photo at my house before leaving for ShuHui's house.. In the end, by the time they leave my house.. it was already 6.45p.m. and cos ShuHui stays all the way at SengKang.. I din go cos I still have some assignment to do and the travelling time will be too time-consuming=( hahaa.. cant believe tt we travel the whole day and covered only 4 houses.. hmm.. tt confirms one theory.. GIRLS can really TALK!!! we din even have time to gamble or anything.. but it was really quite FUN!! Guess we should be meeting up again before Clara and WenHan leave for Aussie on the 23rd.. Till We Meet Again GIRLS!
HUIYI: PLEASE ORGANISE THIS TIME!!!
*JiN* slept soundly at 8:49 PM
Friday, February 03, 2006
I've been wanting to BLOG like since New Year's Eve??? hahaaa.. super busy this past week.. and SOOOOOOOO FAST!!!!! My FaVoRiTe Festive season of the Year is going to be over soon!!!! I loved celebrating CNY since i was a kid.. cos it's a time when everyone gathers together and eat and chat... and it's a time when i collect Red Packets.. and it's the only time that i GAMBLE:):):) Actually the only fun part of New Year is on the Eve and the 1st day..(For Me Laaa) although Chinese celebrate 15 days for the lunar New Year.. But this year is not that bad for me:):) cos i was kept busy for the first 3 days.. moving from house to house:):) and this year all the Mahjong sessions all held @ my house:):) so all my maternal cousins and families come and cramp my tiny house.. super cramp laa... but it was soooo RE NAO!! i like... hahaaa... but the only Sad Thing is that i DUNNO how to play Mahjong!!!! IMAGINE Staying up till 4 a.m. sitting beside my mum and watching her play... i prefer to play cards.. lidat can Include more ppl... In the end AH!! i became the Chamber maid.. Helped to serve drinks, prepare desserts, cut cakes...... but i can also proudly says that i've since picked up a skill or 2 after watching the games for 3 days straight.. hohooo.. now I've got the mahjong table and the set lying in my Living Room:):) Maybe can rope in the girls to play when they come my house for house visiting this Sunday.. Ooo.. I'm kinda looking fwd to meeting e 7 of them this Sunday... haaha.. we'll be moving from house to house! Guess it's gonna be FuN:):) but one thing is tt.. we'll be taking Public Transport and not all the houses are along the way.. the travelling part is a bit the sianzzzz.. YUP.. anyway back to Mahjong!! now my mum is super ADDICTED to the game.. she just picked it up this year (Thanks to the influence of Les~) now she kept pestering the both of Us and my sis to play... hahaaa..she cant bear to return the Mahjong Table to my Uncle (Zhi's dad).. I must get rid of it once the 15 days is over if not my GRADES gonna suffer!! hahaaa..
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As for Now... SOME CNY PICS:):):)
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On the Eve with my SiS~~ *I know we dun look alike.. In fact when i go house visiting.. everyone was laughing @ me.. They were like " Aiyo... how come u sooo San Po?! even smaller size than your sis???" and i really REALLY Hate it when everyone goes " tsk tsk.. y u so skinny?? never eat ah? blah blah blah....."
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I'm so PROUD of my RED HEELS!
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with another MAHJONG ADDICT i.e. my beloved cousin..
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With Mahjong Addict No. 1 i.e. my MUM =p and my Gramps!!!
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Cousins *also my childhood playmates* Those were the days....... now We are all grown up and DEMURE;)
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With Jen the little VainPot:0)
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Went House Visting with Les Friends too:):) hahaaa.. and playing cards with them was soo SO FUN! and i won 15 bucks too!! *Cheap Thrill*
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Hmm.. din take alot of photos this year.. too busy snacking and chatting..and I'm super SICK of PINEAPPLE TARTS and Bak Kwa now.. talking about Bak Kwa.. guess nowadays everyone is too PRO-"Healthly Lifestyle" liaoo.. even the Bwa Kwa now taste sooo DrrRRy!! all the retailers using Lean Meat instead.. Aiyo.. the Meat shld be Fattier the Beta mah!!! more JUICY.. anyway New year is only Once a year.. must spoil ourselves @ times RIGHT?! anyway~~ shall end my post here.. Gonna upload more photos soon:):) Last but not Least..
Happy New Year to all!!! GONG XI FA CAI:)
*JiN* slept soundly at 11:09 PM
