jIn's CULTURE

Friday, May 27, 2005

Not a good day today.. din sleep well yesterday.. in a foul mood.. but still i've to wear a smile one my face..
1. made a mistake at work yesterday.. undercharged a customer by 150 bucks (but she's a wonderful lady.. instead of kicking up a big fuss like most rich tai-tais.. she still asked whether am i too troubled to slp yesterday nite) the WORLD needs more of such angels..
2. Manager dropped by yesterday and commented tt i did not serve my customers.. (hello~ i was busy packing existing customers' order.. how to serve other cust?!) i was kept so busy e whole of yesterday.. was so drained out at e end of the day..
3.grand dad fell down today.. rushed over to his hse.. but dont have the strength to carry him up.. he looked so helpless.. just lying on the ground and there's nth i can do.. lucky mum's back in time to help out.. realised tt he's beginning to slur in his speech too.. and i'm somehow shocked at his current situation.
4. Great Singapore Sale is here! but i'm not at all excited.. WHY?! tt means longer working hours and i cant even shop cos i'm not paid (and not going to be WELL-PAID)
5.made someone unhappy again.. arg~ how i wish i can write everything down.. but some things are left beta unsaid.. dun wanna touch on sensitive issues again.. Right now.. i juz wanna shut everything off my mind..

Conclusion: I'm feeling gloomy.. i wanna be alone.. i crave for a lil' space right now.. not tt i wanna avoid anyone or anything or run away frm reality.. just a lil' while to calm down.. to ease my tension.. to learn to count my blessings.. to appreciate the ppl ard me.. to learn to be grateful.. to do simple things: going for a slow walk, draw or just read a book..

"We can let circumstances rule us, or we can take charge and rule our lives from within. "
-Earl Nightingale

*JiN* slept soundly at 4:58 PM